Passing the Test →
By Erin Michelson
I was 16 and attending a SAT-prep class. I wanted to perform well on the test so I faithfully attended every class and stayed late many nights to study on my own.
While in one of the study rooms one night, I met a guy in his 20s who was studying for the MCAT (the…
12:12pm Monday Life Updated
- Last night, my phone died while I was writing a long life update post and wouldn’t recharge. My computer has been dead for two weeks now. I was frustrated that I lost my draft but glad to be disconnected.
- I finished “Ender’s Game” last night. Such a good book.
- I’m grateful for this past weekend. Glad to have found a friend group with people at the same intersection of many of my interests: community-building, board games, fitness, moderate going out, Legend of Korra. Such a happy coincidence.
- I worry that some of my friends’ boyfriends might feel insecure.
- It’s my last weekend in NYC.
- I spent time this weekend with a friend that I met once before. Very few prior interactions. One memory was a subtle suggestive remark that he made during a conversation after my then-boyfriend went to bed. I brushed it off because I didn’t want to instigate anything. I don’t have enough certainty to know if he meant anything malicious but he’s an otherwise extremely well-spoken and well-meaning guy so I’ll assume it was nothing. It’s still a memory that sticks with me and makes me a little uncomfortable.
- I worry that I’ve become more sure of my beliefs and convictions but that it makes me less curious about other people’s beliefs.
- I also worry that I’m becoming vapid: I find it more difficult to maintain friendships that do not have a certain level of interestingness or uniqueness. I still maintain that all of my friendships are important but I think I let myself fall into an attention-deficit stupor more often than I would like to.
- I’ve started dating and having sex again. It comes with the expected good and bad and time-consumption. I typically am sexually inactive during the school year or when I’m working on something that I care about so it’s been a number of months since my last romantic/sexual anything. It’s been interesting but I think I’ll press pause again until I finish my masters.
#the way of the bow
"The best allies are those who do not think like everyone else. That is why when you seek companions with whom you can share your enthusiasm for archery, trust your intuition and pay no attention to what anyone else may say. People always judge others by taking as a model their own limitations, and other people’s opinions are often full of prejudice and fear… Join with all those who experiment, take risks, fall, get hurt and then take more risks. Stay away from those who affirm truths, who criticise those who do not think like them, people who have never taken a step unless they were sure they would be respected for doing so, and who prefer certainties to doubts."
It’s 4:49am and I just got back from drinks and board games with a friend. We played Avalon. On my way home, I’ve started reading “The Way of the Bow” by Paulo Coelho on my phone recently. This is some solid advice in chapter 2. Paolo Coelho is quickly becoming one of my favorite writers, after I read “The Alchemist” and starting this book.
It’s 2:20pm. I am feeling hot hands for the first time in a while after eating a big falafel pita lunch. I’m also drowsy at work. Seriously what’s up with my metabolism?