#why am i like this
It’s half past midnight and I just finished showering. It’s been a really full day of club music, brunch, hot yoga, and Korean BBQ.
Now, I don’t normally condone infatuation because it tends to be time-consuming and unhealthy, but I’m making an exception here. The highlight of my day was my waiter at dinner. He was cute, nice, and made conversation with my family throughout our KBBQ dinner. I asked a few innocent questions about him during dinner and we (meaning the whole family and he) talked about birthdays, horoscopes, China, etc. with him. As we were getting up to leave, I told my sister that I was going to be ballsy and ask him if he was single (and if he was straight, I would just tell him that my sister was interested lol). She told me to be more subtle. As everyone was leaving and I getting up as well, he asks me my name before I even get up. My family is already leaving the restaurant, so I’m wondering if he timed his question this way. I tell him my name and he asks me if I live around the area. At this point I’m mind-blown. There was nothing hinting at his sexuality, so I [heteronormatively] assumed that he was straight. I told him that I live only a few streets away from the restaurant and after a little bit of small-talk (and my asking him if I’d get a discount the next time I came to the restaurant and his responding that he’d work things out), he said “we’ll stay in touch.” I’m not sure if this was an invitation to ask for a phone number or Facebook add, but I (still a little surprised and infatuated), said “yeah, we should” and left. So you know those moments, when you know that you should have done something differently two seconds after a situation? That’s how I feel right now.
I’ve had this really bad habit of biting my nails since middle school. It’s especially bad when I stress, which happens often. I decided to try to kick a few bad habits this summer and to stop biting my nails, I wear rubber bands on my wrists that I’ll pull as a small negative reinforcement if I start biting my nails. It helps me be a little more conscious of each act of a bad habit. It’s been five weeks and I’m happy to say it’s worked really well! I ended up biting my index finger nail once during work, but otherwise, pretty good results.
It’s 12:13am. Our bot had some last-second bugs. We created a model of the expected value of each game state for this Vickrey auction game to create words with letters that we bought. At the end, a really shitty parsing error ended up bugging our system to death.
Code is masochism. Somehow this really tense game of Jenga is more relaxing than coding after an entire day and night.
One of my biggest pet peeves is click-bait titles. Titles like “A guy posts a picture of a magazine to Tumblr. What happens next will restore your faith in humanity” are the worst when they pop up on my Facebook newsfeed. Now they’re popping up in real life :( when will the madness end
It’s 10:22pm. I’m at the gym in the community center that I live at. Today was bleh working until 7:30pm but picked up after my boxing class and some pick-up volleyball here. I’m gonna sleep well tonight.
8:38pm. Walking to the subway from volleyball.
Something about this city brings me back every time.